At last a bit of calm......

Okies so as everyone within a 50 mile radius of my ranting can tell, I've been a little edgy as of late. First sign is always when my use of the English language gets a little more colourful. *G*

Life while still stressful, is manageable; either that or work is so bloody hectic that I don't have time to worry about anything else because I am dead tired by the time I get home LOL

My WIP has stalled out for the time being, simply because all available brain cells are otherwise occupied but come Jan 1, I will be working double hard on it.
I'm still writing on funstuff, things that only require a paragraph or so a day. Some possibilities for future projects and most just to keep the right side of my brain active.

Despite all my 'whoa is me' crying some really Cool Stuff that has happened.
I got a signed cover flap and book mark and pen from Mary Stella as a prize for my comment I wrote for a writing challenge she opened to everyone who reads her blog. Who Killed Rock Granite? This was back in October and everyone who submitted an idea got one but I'm still thrilled about it.

Then a couple days ago I dropped in a couple additions into a Round Robin that Beth Ciotta was doing and my name was one of two that won an autographed set of her three books!!!! Jinxed, Charmed, and Seduced

I hope that one day I am in the same position as these two ladies and hope that I can be as generous. This is just way cool and a massive pick me up for such a bummer month. I am just tickled about the possibility of 3 new books coming my way and ones that I had planned to purchase as soon as my credit card was happy with me again. Her newest book Lasso The Moon is being released in February and I have preodered one already.

On a side note I have to toot my own horn on my progress with the HTML stuff. I'm getting good at the links and stuff. Of course it takes me a few hours to do it but *shrugs* who cares, it actually fun. I might actually take a course on website building one day.

How do you turn a paperclip into a house?

So I'm watching my favourite morning show, Breakfast Television and Liza was talking about this guy who is trying to achieve his dream of owning a house by trading up for one.

He started with a red paperclip and has traded his way up to a snowmobile.
What a cool idea! (It you click on the title of this blog you will go to his website.)

Apparently it is a take on a game he and his buddies used to do or something like that, strange but damn I hope he can do it. That would make one hell of a story that he could retell for years, a lifetime in fact.

The only thing of worth I have to trade is an unemployed husband, but I'm kinda attached to the guy so I think I might keep him for a little while longer. Unles he pisses me off too much then I might see what I can get for him. (oh come one you know I'm kidding!)

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On the writing front, things are progressign nicely. I devided up my WIP into chapters, so as of today I have 23 chapters. Of coruse some of them are only 4 pages long but I'll work on that later *G*

I did hear a bit of news. Kensington Publishers are starting up an erotic line. That is the Good news; Bad news is they only accept manuscripts from agented authors. *dramatic sigh*
SO I am almost back at square one. I know someone who might be able to connect me with an agent but I've gone to a bunch of his workshops and he is really cool but the thought of actually giving my work to someone I know to read *ack* Especially with all the sex in it! It's like doing it right in front of the guy LOL. I guess I had better get over this hang up really quick.

Tomorrow is my day off!!!!!!

WooHoo I finally have a day off!

I worked last Sunday which means my last day off was last Thursday and I can tell you I HATE this shit. Hubby still doesn't thave a job, and I am trying to be patient and understanding and all that crap
BUT
when I am the one working 48 hours a week, doing laundry, cleaning, sorting recycling, getting and taking out the garbage, getting up extra early each day, trying to work it out that one of the girls from work gives me a drive so he can have the car. Along with what feels like a mountain of other things I am doing, (sparks, my writing, holiday preparation, etc) And what does my husband do?

Well I'll give credit where credit is due he has made dinner each night this week, and has attempted to tidy the kitchen and sweep the floors. Of course he called me today to complain that the electricty was turned off, (they were working on a transformer or something on the street) and he had nothing to do but sit around for 4 hours.

4 FUCKING HOURS!!!!

What I would do for 4 hours by my self with no one around, and no distractions and he was complaining?

*sigh* I am running out of patience.

My week from HELL!!!!!!!!!!

~~~Cover your eyes if your easily offended, this will be your only warning.~~~

You know there are times when I wish I lead a boring life. I really get sick of the dramatic bullshit that I seem to be stepping in lately. What, you might ask, possibly could have happened to ruin what was a wonderful "I won NANO glow" I had going.

My husband getting fired from his fucking job, 3 fucking weeks before the holidays! Which has forced me to work extra shifts on on Sundays for the over time. Somthing I really HATE to do. Sundays as the only day that, up until now, were guartenteed that the family could spend together.

Now did my hubby do anything wrong, NOPE! He has found out through various sources that it is possible that this jackoff boss of his had every intention of firing my hubby the day he hired him. Right after he learned everything my hubby knows about the job he does and met all hubbies contacts and sat in on all the training seminars that my hubby does. Then completely blindsides him and fires him. Will the cocksucker be hiring someone to replace my man? NOPE, Muthafucka has said that he will be taking over my hubbies duties.

Leaving us with only 1 vehicle, and 1 income with a new house and bills and other things that had me to the point of absolutly loosing it last night. My anxiety level is through the goddamn roof, I'm nauseous, my tummy physically hurts ever time I manage to eat something and I gained 5 fucking pounds. Can anyone explain that shit to me!

Have to say that as much as I bitch and vent about the man I married I truly love him. He curled up next to me and kissed my head and stroked my hair while I sobbed my eyes out, telling me that we will be fine, that this is a little set back and how much he loves me and seeing me like that was breaking his heart.

You know there I was laying there, all puffy eyed, runny nose, blochy faced, with a spliting headache and I honestly think I fell in love with him again.
(Well I realized that once I calmed down a bit.)
Sometimes it's the little things that you don't realize at the time. Hubby knows how I feel about crying in front of people. Don't ask me why, I sure there is some sort of trama in my past that has given me this hang up and what ever it is I don't remember and frankly I don't fucking want to. Anyways he never turned on the bedroom light, never made me look at him and went down to put the kettle on for me once I settled down a bit. That is one pretty fucking smart man if you ask me.

Now will this drama last forever, no I know it won't. Logically I know that hubby will get another job and this is just a hurdle that we will get over, Does that stop me from living in full fledged panic mode. No, not so far.

Now I sure this post would have been much nasiter and much longer if it hadn't been for a post in Jen's blog. She has a link for one of the funniest things I have seen/heard in a long time. Nothing like laughing your ass off to take the wind out of a good bitch session.

http://www.illwillpress.com/xmas.html

I also want to add my heart felt thanks to Paula and Steph for their notes to me last week and their comments on the previous post, and also to Jen for her encourage ment when I got close to the finish line. Ladies, from the depths of my heart thank you for your kind words, they mean the absolute world to me.