Friday, March 09, 2007
Ah yes, I do suffer from this. It's silly really. I can answer question after question in the store. It's not unusual to have people waiting for me on a release day to answer what ever it is they want to know about the products; BUT put me at the front of a group with all attention on me and I panic. I'm not a teacher, I'm a horrible public speaker. (think Bridget Jones, that's so me!) Part of my job description is that I have to teach classes. Now I have dodged the bullet for over 3 years but they caught up with me. This Thursday I have to teach a class. I'm terrified.
Again I know rationally that I am being silly. I can talk for hours on wine and spirits until you are sick of hearing me go on....but in front of a group with every eye on me? Does anyone have one of those little airplane baggies?
Thankfully it is a cooking class, so that the spotlight is shared with the Chef. Really he is the front liner, I'm merely the opening act, but I have to choose the wines to go with what he is creating. Then I have to explain why I choose them. LOL My heart rate is speeding up just typing this, that is how unnerved I am.
Part if my fear is having a panic attack in front of the class. I suffered for years with dabilitating irrational fears that would manifest in agonizing panic attacks. Thankfully over time I have managed to learn some tricks to diffuse them before they are out of control; BUT I still get blindsided every once in a while.
I can't wait till Friday and it's all over.
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